Living a better life
Well, continuing where i left off from my last blog, the six months were wonderful until the breakup. I wanted to leave the scene during the initial rejection but she insisted for me not to. After some time, it seemed that she was ready to be in a relationship with me and we hooked up. We were both having a great time though she was a tad stubborn and vain. Well, im known to be very stubborn too and when stubbornness and stubbornness meets, it s a bad sign. I identified my faults then and were constantly trying to overcome it. She doesn’t know how to do this and let it overcome her sensibilities. It was this that i was trying to get rid of off her but in the end it backfired on me.
Thats a lesson learnt, u can only bring a mule to a pond but u can’t force it to drink from it. Been having crazy time since the last six months, got into a company, Patimas which I’m still in.. Stationed in KLCC to serve a sub branch of Petronas, Carigal. Heck of a place thought the job has become almost routine and a lack of multinational org. touch has made it almost tricky to manage work here. Im talking bout the work processes professionalism here. I been blogging on facebook notes and just wanted to transfer the relevant latest post.
Of coz, the paragraph above is just to fill in the missing links of the last 6 months in summary. Most of it is too personal and affects someone else so not suitable to be blogged. I was wondering, what ’s so different that Im feeling so empty these days compared to the last years even when I was single. I realized I had so much to focus on that i didnt have time to be bored, i had my degree to do well in, assignments, projects, work, and then my friends, not to mention the amount of time i spent just traveling using public transport. I was busy and yet had things to do and a li free time and lots of fun.
Then graduation came, no more studies, that left a big hole in my life, lots of free time, and just work, n chilling out with friends. In a way, it was refreshing, as life before was like in a pressure cooker, multitasking loads of stuff. Thinking back , it was crazy , i dont know how it was that i handled it so well. Then came my first bike, that really saved more time, getting to places that normally take an hour orso in just 15-30 mins. I got a new job and it was getting easier n easier as time passed, and in a way routine. It was only i was so engrossed in my love life that i didnt really feel that effect.
And then the girl. I been focusing on her and putting in so much time for her, and now i realize how much effort and time i spent on her for the last 6 months. Now that she’s no longer there, i have loads more time and a routine job. Bad combo, as this is why people jump jobs.
Well, i gotta stay on till September at least, and September is a motivation for me to push day to day forward, waiting till then. I realize that now im free in terms of time and commitment, I can really do anything I want, and im using this to go see places n have a wonderful life. I got a great camera, I just successfully planned a trip this April to Krabi for a water festival. I finally understand, that not all things that seems bad is bad after all. Its a blessing in disguise 
When you have things to look forward to, Life just isn’t routine after all, once im done with what i’ve planned, i know there will be more things to come n more things to do. I have a feeling this is gonna be bomb of a year, woohoo!!!
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